Love. We all want it and we all need it. Is there a better feeling than being in love? In feeling loved in return?
Songs, movies, and books perpetually throw love in our faces. And, in our hearts. And, in our daily thoughts and prayers. There's different types of love, but, the most prolific type of love is the romantic variety.
We all know people who seem to meet the "right" person, fall in love, get married and stay married for life.
With the divorce rate at an all time high, I know the number of people this is happening to, is dwindling.
Are we meant to be with one person, to love only once? Yes, if we 're penquins.
I've been in love more than once. Pure, unabashed, raw emotion I have felt for another human being. With the delight of middle of the day and middle of the night calls, long conversations, serious lovemaking, wild crazy sex, fun times, future planning and simply living in the moment, I had love. Then it ended. And, I found someone else, or they found me. If I believed there was only one person destined to be with me, I would have driven my car off of a cliff a long time ago, having thought there is only one chance at love. Only one soul mate?. No, I don't think so. I am a seeker. A searcher. An explorer. Love is out there. There are many reasons why relationships don't always work out....I'll speak of some of that in future blogging.
I have recently thought about the dating scene. Not just for myself, but, I've thought about many friends and acquaintances I have, some of them in their twenties and early thirties. Imagine, if you will, trying to date today. You head out on the weekend, looking and feeling great, you hang with the Glenwood South cowboys (for those not in Raleigh -- Glenwood South is where the bars/restaurants/nightlife is), hoping for a connection. So, you meet someone. Okay. And, with the technology today, you expect to hear from them via text, email, or cell phone, before you make it home. I think the nurturing of a relationship is missing.. It all has become very disposable. Look, I will not say that I have never had a one-night stand; I have. But, that was a long time ago, and I don't even think it is wrong -- as long as both parties feel the same way. If you are looking for a special connection, I do not think hooking up is the right avenue. Not for women, and not for men. Love will remain elusive...because, like any project, it requires a beginning, a middle and an end. Romance is not an exact science but, hooking up is merely the end.
I used to believe that having a love affair was dishonest. Society is governed by codes and rules and our desires don't fit into those rules. A love affair can and should be a beautiful thing. Because, prior to having settled into our future, with a mate, isn't the love affair the beginning of that future? Or not. Recently, I flirted with the idea of having an affair with someone much younger than I, and those thoughts made me smile. This person is a friend and someone I've known for some years, who on a couple of occasions said some things, and I in return said some things, where the demarcation line between friendship and something else, was crossed. Full disclosure -- alcohol was involved. Did that make the feelings less real? Aren't drunken words sober thoughts? Nothing happened, but, I had been willing to explore the opportunity, because I have come to know how short life is and we should all grab onto the possibility of sharing happiness. And, I am glad we are still friends -- I would not want to lose that.
Finally, fear. Fear is like wearing cement shoes. It keeps us stuck from pursuing our dreams. Especially when it comes to love. We are all so afraid of being hurt, at failing, that we simply forget to be. There is a much higher price we pay for doing nothing, than if we make a mistake. Whenever my granddaughter, Katey, makes a mistake, I remind her the reason why erasers are on pencils. We get to start over. Every day, if we need to. No matter how many times I have fallen down, I know it only counts that I get up.